16/09/2019

I did not like the way I was left there, mumbling, while I could've been told the reason for which I had no reply. I did not like how I said everything whereas they got to keep their integrity, pride, and self-respect by disclosing nothing.

Do I give them the impression that they can do that?

I have a peculiar understanding of the world. I am not socially intelligent, and I let go of so much to make them happy and unhurt.

But, I deserve better, and I should know better. I suppose this is how I'll get my skin thickened.

All that is bound to happen now is doing the right things. I know that's what I do when I am mad.

Do you remember this happening before?

You do, don't you?

Time will heal. I will not blame myself this time. I like how I naively act. At least, It shows my nature.

I like following my guts even if it hurts. I will train them to predict better.

I stand by what I say and what I mean. It does not always reach people the way I intend it to, and that's fine.

I can work on that.

Ps: Had other words been used, it wouldn't have mattered, but that choice of words revived a wound that was yet healing.