Powerless

What an infuriating feeling!

By now, you are left alone with no self-esteem to keep you company.

It eats your insides.

You feel so weak and vulnerable.

All that was once a shelter

is not familiar at all.

Many times did you try to stop this, but no use.

You have no courage to try once more.

It seems like a nightmare you promised yourself never to sleep to see again.

You wonder if it is possible to live with it no consequences to bear

But, you know so well that there will always be a “but I can’t”,

A struggle,

An option for others but never for you,

A stop sign, a red flag,

An “out of your reach” ability.

It breaks your heart,

Harms your soul,

limits your potential and

Finger points the damage.

Then, they see your pain, feel your frustration and

suggest a plan C, D or E. they might reach Z.

But, you no longer care.

Your plans are ruins.

Your determination runs away

The moment she gets reminded of that damage.

Your optimism knows all along that he will only stay for a while.

Your goal is not a goal anymore.

They leave you with the sorrows of either a dead or a delayed pursuit.

A feeling of inability that you know very well.

If, for any reason, what you wanted happened,

You will be deemed the girl who achieves what she wants as she wants.

You know, however, that it is a past calling, a wound opened, an unnecessary journey to complete a simple task.

Your aim may be reached, but it is an aim certainly drained out of any pleasure.

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