Dear Loneliness,

Dear Loneliness,

Liveliness is what I crave in your company. The more I think about you, the more I realise how much you resemble a mesmerising black rose. One can hardly resist your charm. We no longer speak to each other, at least, never out loud. We never spoke that much even before, when you had not yet inflicted pain on me. You can be so overwhelming at times, though. How you would not budge even if I beg. You would not leave even when I ask you to. I thought our relationship was meant to be harmless. Do you remember? I used to give up on things and people just to be with you. There are different nuances to your persona. You can be harsh, gentle, soft, rigid and everything in between. You know I could've left, but my ego would not let me. Leaving you for others required me to silence my ego, and, more often than not, I could not do it. After a loss, you are always around. I grew to expect your presence each time I lost whatever was meaningful to me. We both fall then into the comfort of isolation. It protects us from eventual losses. The day I lost myself, you were morbid. You've never been that sharp, and I have never recovered. People feel a desperate need to fill the void you create. I loved the void you created. You are so evocative. You know you are. We don't speak, but you urge my mind to recall all sorts of feelings. You are mistaken for solitude, darling, and you hate that to the bones. I know you were afraid that I would recognise the difference and leave you for your sweeter sibling. How could you think so? Even if I had no control over it all, even if having you was not my choice. I wouldn't have minded because I trusted you. I saw your beauty. I thought it was unfair how no one ever gave you a chance. But, why are we here in this position, darling? I was comfortable with all what you represented. Now, your stillness facing all of this is making me gloomy. I will not ask to part. However, I will say this if you are determined to stay till the end of days, be as I knew you the first time we met.

Yours truly,

Peaceangel